Currently Reading Gemma By Meg Tilly see related

First, I wanted to thank Angie and Laurie for the comments on my last entry. I love you two! I spent a long time pretty much expected everyone else to help me...Pretty much thinking that they WANTED to help me. I know now that isnt the case.  Except for Mom and Dad of course..Lol. I know now that no one wants to help anyone financially unless they'll benefit from it somehow. Nobody wants to give just for the sake of giving to make someone happy. Its pathetic. I know when I withdrew from college it was not my fault. I couldnt help the fact that I got sick and I couldnt help the fact that in Cosmetology, you can only miss a certain number of days. Now, I owe money because I withdrew, even though I didnt recieve any money from that pell grant. Thats not important now though, because I've talked to everyone at the college and although it makes no sense, I still have to pay it back.

Even though I have a job now, I feel more broke than when I was unemployed. I guess it doesnt help much that I got my check yesterday and that cheap bastard isnt paying me for all of my hours...We keep a log of our hours at work, along with clocking in and out. He goes out of his way to find ways to keep money. I hate it. But he'll pay 150 dollars for a blow job??? WTF? I was only paid for 2 days, when I worked 4. The week before I'd worked 5 and was only paid for 2. Its pissing me off...I have an application for the bank. I hope I can get a job at one of the banks. It doesnt help when one of the car hops has been talking shit about me. This woman is in her 40's, and is a car hop. She was working at the casino, but I guess she lost it when they popped all those drugs tests and fired alot of people. she was a cocktail waitress...Dont know how that happened, because she is fucking ugly. She didnt even have any teeth! The casino paid for her to go get dentures, but I guess they kept those when she lost her job. Anyway, she had the nerve to call me a slut in front of one of my friends the other day...Like she has some room to talk! She says this in front of her 15 year old pregnant daughter who doesnt know who the father of her baby is...So now, I started a pool at work and everyone is betting on what race the girls baby is going to be. I also complained to Mr. Roberson, and he is suppose to say something to her about it. If he doesnt, Im leaving as soon as I get another job. Maybe before. I know that you will always work with people you dont like, but when you DREAD going to work because of these people, thats something completely different. You shouldn't DREAD going to work because of some lousy ass mother fuckers that you HAVE to work with.

Anyway, Im going to lay back down. Im really tired. I dont feel good. I'll write more later.

<3 Ashli

Currently Reading Chicken Soup for the Dieter's Soul: Inspiration and Humor to Help You Over the Hump (Chicken Soup for the Soul) By Jack Canfield, Mark Victor Hansen, Theresa Peluso see related

So, I haven't updated in a long time

It's 2007! Woo hoo. I just hope this year is better than 2006 was. 2006 sucked. But hopefully I can make 2007 better. Im going to try.

I've been working at Sonic. I started right before Christmas. I didnt like it at first, but its growing on me. Its good for me. I work the fountain. I make the drinks and all the ice cream stuff...When it gets busy, it gets irritating though. Mr. Robertson is nice. I dont know if I believe the rumors or not, but he is nice. I had a really bad migraine on New Years Day and couldnt go to work, so I called and told him and he was as sweet as could be. I thought I was going to have to get a shot, which would have sucked because I dont have insurance.

I thought I was getting paid every two weeks, but Im getting paid every week...I dont like that. I would rather be paid every two weeks, so I would have half my paycheck for the month and it would make it easier to pay my bills. My paycheck for last week was 64 dollars...But I only worked 2 and a half days, and not for long so its cool. I need to pick up my bad check from walmart, and pay it. Its just like 33 dollars. I have to finish paying off my stage card..I paid 40 dollars on it last week. That makes only 160 dollars left to pay on it. lol. I have to make my car payments and insurance and I have to do ALL this, before I can plan going back to Cosmetology..And saving money. I guess it wont take long..It will go by before I know it. Once I get this shit paid, and start saving, it will take no time. I still want to keep my job after I start back to Cosmetology. I can work after school from like 5 or 6 til closing. I'd still get a good paycheck. My first day working there, I made more than I did in a week at Kelly's. Thats sad for Kelly's, awesome for Sonic. It will get better, I know. Or at least I hope. Doesn't everyone like the new optimistic Ashley? lol.

Thats all for now..I have to work 10-5 tomorrow. I hope I dont wake up sick again tomorrow like I have the past two days. Damn Cold and stuff. Ugh. Not to mention the migraines. and the naseau. No, Im not pregnant....Havent had sex. :) lol.

<3 <3 <3

Ashley

Yesterday was my first day without a cigarette. I dont even have an urge to smoke! The last time I "quit", I always wanted a cigarette...Not this time! Thank goodness for Chantix! Im about to go watch "Cheaper by the dozen 2", then go to bed.

<3 Ashli

Hayleigh had her tonsils taken out monday. She lost alot of blood and has been running a really high fever. It's been hard on her, contrary to popular belief. Thanks to everyone who has called to check on her or come by to check on her....That makes one person. Thanks Aunt Wendy! :) On top of momma having to take care of Hayleigh, she has been sick also and Dad has strep throat..I've been working and Im getting sick also. But anyway, I have to work tomorrow and Im pretty wore out from today. It doesn't help when I go to work to ACTUALLY work, when there's a creepy old guy that sits in there who has a history of following young girls from work. He just SITS in there and stares at me, and Madison and Kelly...Its really pissing me off, especially since no one will do anything excpt "Talk" to him about it...Over and over and over again. Hello? Restraining order? Damn.

Anyway...Im hoping for a better paying job soon. Pray for me, because this alone is not paying my bills. I need another job, and I'll still work this one on the weekends.

Like I said, pray for me. :)

<3 always,

Ashley

P.S. Creepy old guy's name is Bill Mansfield. Eh.

Get your laws off my body and your religion out of my government!

Get your laws off my body and your religion out of my government!

1.) With whom I have sex, when, where, and how is my business, not yours. The only involvement you, the government, are allowed to have in the sex lives of your citizens is to provide all-inclusive, age-appropriate sex ed in public schools that encompasses not only the dangers of sex, but how to properly prevent pregnancy and the spread of STDs. You're fucking delusional if you think that telling kids that condoms don't work is going to stop them from having sex. It's not. It's just going to stop them from using condoms. Speaking of condoms, Jesus doesn't hate them. Jesus doesn't hate birth control, either. God said, "Be fruitful and multiply", but he didn't specify how many times. Also, that bit about not wasting sperm? Read your Bible, morons. It doesn't have to do with spilling seed, it has to do with a man disobeying God by refusing to impregnante his dead brother's wife. Go go Gadget mental editing! (Thanks to Liz Menesale.) 2.) Until that fetus springs forth, screaming, from my loins, its location within my body means that, under the concept of Bodily Domain, I, legally, can choose to remove it. Bodily Domain means that no one can touch my body without my consent, and only in ways that I consent to, because it is my body. I can kill a man who is raping me for ten minutes without my consent because he is violating my Bodily Domain, but I can't kill an non-sentient fetus which is using my uterus for nine MONTHS without my consent because it's doing the same? 3.) Pro-Choice does not mean Pro-Abortion, you partisan fucks. It means that my morals may dictate that I live in poverty with every one of my ten illegitimate children, but if you so choose, you can terminate your pregnancy. Because it's YOUR choice. Pro-Choicers aren't looking to eradicate the human race, and legalized abortion has yet to stop this obnoxious problem of over-population we seem to have. 4.) America is not a theocracy. Repeat this to yourself until it sinks in. That means that you can worship however you like, and I can, too. Or not. It's up to me. But the very second you presume that YOUR PERSONAL religion is so important that you can use it to dictate what the rest of the country does, you've crossed the line into "unconstitutional". No, your idea of creation should not be taught in public schools. No, you should not spend millions of tax dollars on an abstinence-ed system already proven to be a failure because your God doesn't think that the unmarried should have sex. No, Jesus doesn't hate homosexuals, and even if he did, it wouldn't be your job nor your prerogative to deny them equal rights, oh ye who live in glass houses. 5.) Just in case you think you're a pro-life feminist, you're almost as deluded as the guy who thinks that the teen pregnancy rate can be slowed by refusing to teach kids how not to get pregnant. I don't care how you look at it; you are taking away women's rights to rule over their own bodies and forcing them to remain pregnant against their will, and there is not a true feminist in existence that wouldn't condemn your sorry ass for it. 6.) Jesus does not love guns. Jesus does not hate gays. Jesus never said a damn thing about blessing America. Jesus does not want you to judge others. Jesus prohibits preaching in the streets or praying just to be seen of men. Jesus has no opinion on abortion, (but apparently it would have cost you a sack of grain instead of a public stoning, FYI). Jesus does not condemn terrorists. Jesus does not want us in Iraq. Jesus does not want us in Afghanistan (remember Afghanistan?) Jesus does not approve of your witnessing. Jesus loves equally, and that includes Liberals. Or have you not actually read your Bible? We are opinionated, and we are militant. There is no wiggle-room.   (Planned Parenthood facebook group)